Thursday, November 7, 2013

pain

I feel alone in this world, no one understands me,I’m on the edge, I’m about to jump, can’t you see? I’m invisible to you, and everyone in it, All I am is a tiny little speck ready to explode my love is more true then any thing i speak  , i feel My only friend in this world is the darkness of night, It’s only here for awhile, but it makes things alright, My only love and friends and even my family have all gone away, They pretended to help, but they wouldn’t stay, They said that they’d help me, they said that they’d be there, But in the end, when I really needed them, they didn’t care, They told me they’ve tried, but they’ve given up on me now, They left me alone to figure life out some how, I don’t trust my self to do what is right but i do know i love you so, But then comes darkness again, everything will be alright,
Darkness is not happy, but it’s better than light, It shows me the truth of my everyday life,
It asks me the question of why I’m still here, But deep in my heart, the answers not clear,
Why am I still here, when my life is nothing but pain, The darkness, it tells me, I have nothing to gain, I don’t know when, but the day will come, When I leave, and say, goodbye to everyone, The day will be sad, but it wont last long, People will go on living as if nothing was wrong, But nothing was wrong, because i was never really there, Same as before, all I’ll be is a whisper in the air

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Saturday, September 28, 2013

Flutter

Weeping intensifies my anxiety.
Can tomorrow come without you...
here today?
The cheap chandelier falls on my face.
The rose filled lamp explodes in my hands.
Pain is unrecognizable.
All I knew was you.
You.
My love.

Flutter

Here I am in this place of none feeling...
This palace of sadness and deathly silence -
I am a prisinor not bound by bars nor chains but by flesh and bone - a monster inside myself,
and here I shall stay forever hidden away
in darkness of the darkest souls.

Friday, September 27, 2013

Flutter

April 11 2012 (my first and last true SL love)
Flutter
It’s since that first touch; I’ve been completely in love,There is nothing that you could say, I’m staying.Afraid that I can’t be what you need me to be,
But I will always keep singing, and every time
I close my eyes; I'll know that you need me,
Just as I need you,To breathe.

if i could turn the hands of time back i would in a heart beat i would be everything you needed me to be now the time has passed and ur no longer but memories of u will echo in my heart forever i am happy thou for u and i know 1 day our paths will cross in the real and who knows where that cold wind will blow ill never forget the good times we shared and ill always keep u in my heart i never stopped caring for u and ill always be there for u when u need a shoulder to lean on stay safe my love xoxoxox

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Hacker Troll

To "troll" means to allure, to fish, to entice or to bait... Internet trolls are people who fish for other people's confidence and, once found, exploit it.

Trolls are various in nature and the type of damage they do ranges greatly, such as:Cause irritation to others Disrupt an email list or online group Steal money Obtain credit card details Build false hopes Abuse children
make up detailed lies
give false information for there own benefits

What is a troll? The term "troll" can mean a number of different things, but in essence, a troll is a person who aims to have 'pleasure' at your expense. There are two main types of trolls:

**people who have the psychological need to feel good by making others feel bad.

This is a sort of "psycho troll", whose deception involves deceiving themselves as well as others. Such people may use their real names on the Internet, and they may not even realize that they are "trolling" because it is all subconscious.

Identity theft is when someone sets up a web page (or uses documents like passports etc) to pretend they are you. Sometimes, on social networking sites, people can set up a page which looks like you made it, but it says mean things about you and makes you look bad. This is a form of harassment and any kind of harassment is not ok.


troll bullies get a perverse sense of satisfaction (called gratification) from sending people flame mail and hate mail. Flame mail is an email whose contents are designed to inflame and enrage. Hate mail is hatred (including prejudice, racism, sexism etc) in an email. Serial bullies, whose behavior profile you'll find in full at Bully Online, harbor a lot of internal aggression which they direct at others. This may include projection, false criticism and patronizing sarcasm whilst contributing nothing of any value. It may also include a common tactic In every case it's a fabrication or a distortion - usually the former. The purpose of this tactic is to wind people up


People who bully are adept at creating conflict between those who would otherwise pool negative information about them. The method of creating conflict is provocation which bullies delight in because they know they can always coerce at least one person to respond in a manner which can then be distorted and used to further flame and inflame people. And so it goes on. The bully then sits back and gains gratification from seeing others engage in destructive behavior towards each other.Scott
Many serial bullies are also serial attention-seekers. More than anything else they want attention. It doesn't matter what type of attention they get, positive or negative, as long as they can provoke someone into paying them attention. It's like a 2-year-old child throwing a tantrum to get attention from a parent.The anger of a serial bully is especially apparent when they come across someone who can see through them to espy the weak, inadequate, immature, dysfunctional aggressive individual behind the mask.


The objectives of bullies are Power, Control, Domination, Subjugation. They get a kick out of seeing you react. It doesn't matter how you react, the fact they've successful provoked a reaction is, to the bully, a sign that their attempt at control have been successful. After that, it's a question of wearing you down. The more your try to explain, negotiate, conciliate, etc the more gratification they obtain from your increasingly desperate attempts to communicate with them. Understand that it is not possible to communicate in a mature adult manner with a disordered individual who's emotionally retarded.The best way to treat bullies is to refuse to respond and to refuse to engage them - which they really hate.


is a convincing, practiced liar and when called to account, will make up anything spontaneously to fit their needs at that moment *has a Jekyll and Hyde nature - is vile, vicious and vindictive in private, but innocent and charming in front of witnesses; no-one can (or wants to) believe this individual has a vindictive nature - only the current target of the serial bully's aggression sees both sides; whilst the Jekyll side is described as "charming" and convincing enough to deceive personnel, management and a tribunal, the Hyde side is frequently described as "evil"; Hyde is the real person, Jekyll is an act *excels at deception and should never be underestimated in their capacity to deceive *uses excessive charm and is always plausible and convincing when peers, superiors or others are present (charm can be used to deceive as well as to cover for lack of empathy) *is glib, shallow and superficial with plenty of fine words and lots of form - but there's no substance *is possessed of an exceptional verbal facility and will outmaneuver most people in verbal interaction, especially at times of conflict *is often described as smooth, slippery, slimy, ingratiating, fawning, toadying, obsequious, sycophantic *relies on mimicry, repetition and regurgitation to convince others that he or she is both a "normal" human being

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Thursday, June 27, 2013

Goodbye My Friend

Today’s the day we fade away..Friendships break Are tossed aside For the love of someone who can’t return it Not in the way she needs How wonderful is this life that we exist in?And yet we are abandoned for a person Who has been known for less than a month 3 years wasted for a night or 2 of fun How wonderful is this life that we exist in?And yet I did nothing wrong  A slip of the tongue, and a lie of a friend And our relationship is no more How wonderful is this world we exist in?Betrayals of promises Echo in the darkening skies How wonderful is this world we exist in?How to say goodbye How wonderful is this world we exist in?How wonderful is this world we exist in?Good bye to my friend..

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